My First Attempt....

In college I wrote a final research paper entitled "Even Supermom Needs Help Learning How to Fly. " This paper (graded with a C) was an attempt to convey my judgement and spew supported research on the difficulties that working mothers face now that being "Supermom" is both necessary and trendy, and the effects of their decisions to pursue a career path while having children, has on family life. Upon completing this paper I decided (20 years ago) that I would do everything I could to stay home with my future children, so I would not have to "endure" the pressures of women who have to work or feel the need to work to "keep up with the Jones'", So that I could be fully present and be proud of "wearing the wifely uniform" day in and day out until my children went to college. Well, I was 21....what did I know?

Now a wife, mother of three, a former Parent Educator, a business owner, boss, yoga instructor, program director, public speaker and all around "shiny ball chaser", I look back and laugh at just how wrong and simple minded I was. For this life my friends is not as simple or easily planned as I once thought. I had not anticipated the difficulties that childbearing would bring, sudden illness, depression, anxiety, feelings being alone even when I was surrounded by people that I love, a realization that happily staying at home with your children and making a home was a gift and talent I did not have and then the sudden inspiration and "bug up my ass" that would occur when I finally figured out that life was not about what you are supposed to do, but rather what we are meant to do....and even that is a life long journey of which the destination is only temporary and continues to change once we think we have finally figured it out!

This blog is about my journey to try to live a full life, and to try to stay sane and present while "learning how to fly".